CHAPTER ONE
Trigger Warning: Video may contain sensitive topics
GUIDED MENTAL HEALTH COMMENTARY
Eva, in extremely contemporary fashion, uploads a video detailing her struggles on her finsta (fake Instagram) account and possibly YouTube. It is familiar— don’t you think?

There is a performativity to this, a dramatization of her own experience before she is able to talk about her negative emotions and state of being. This is a common phenomenon in therapy sessions too. One can become adept at detaching and observing their own behaviour, even dramatizing it.

However, this could be a way of deflecting one’s overwhelming emotions. Letting yourself feel the full weight of emotions may seem too daunting to confront.
Pause, here, just for a moment.  Let me tell you a secret: No one cries for help if they are not in pain.
Here, Eva lists off her symptoms in a metronymic fashion: depressed mood, not keeping up with appearances, low sexual libido, anhedonia (loss of interest in things she used to enjoy), neuro-vegetative symptoms— which sounds precisely as terrible as the name suggests. Eva even proclaims her suicidal thoughts and inclinations.

More than anything else, these are signs of a person struggling deeply with depression. What we see here is a distress signal — I am struggling in flashing neon signs, uploaded to the internet, the most public of spaces.
Our responses to these distress signals matter more than we think. Perhaps we can send a casual DM, a telegram “hey r u ok”, encouragement to seek help, to seek a mental health professional. A hand reached out, especially in the bitter realities of social media.

It helps.
1 This is a video of Eva’s memory.

As we walk with you through Eva’s room, you will find “home” videos of Eva’s memories. Here, we have an actress playing Eva, reading out the words of excerpts of 4.48 Psychosis (a favourite text of ours).
2 Click on the label for guided mental health commentary from accredited psychologists

3 The orange keywords are linked to a compendium for more in-depth reading.