Sometimes, what has been painted on must be taken off: such as our masks, our makeup or our performativity.

We see Eva here giving herself free reign to express her frustration in a private setting: there’s no one here to critique her, no one to perform to, no one to beautify herself for.

Alas, in this short poetic video, we see the signs and symptoms of a cycle of mood disturbances.
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We see her swinging between euphoria and her depressed state of mind -- the trigger being whatever incident that incited her vile delusions of happiness (perhaps the nameless individual towards whom her heart is breaking over).
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She is aware of, and upset at, this state: specifically the notion that she cannot touch her essential self -- which perhaps refers to a normal, healthy, clear-headed state of emotional stability.

Mood disturbances are usually normal -- we all succumb to them in one form or another. A breakup, a death, an unsuccessful pitch -- all these can make us feel unpleasant for a period of time. And thus, it is important to notice the severity of mood disturbances -- especially when it begins to interfere with everyday life. A mental health professional would be helpful in determining if further interventions are necessary.
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For Eva’s case, it is slightly more delicate. Her mood disturbances are enmeshed with her current mental health issues, including perhaps a more deep-rooted personality disorder? (Again and again: this is gleaned only from that which we can pick out in these videos.)
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It would take a while to untangle and process the complexity in her recovery process -- which would point to why her recovery seems so protracted.
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We do get a glimpse of Eva’s recovery, though, having journeyed with her thus far.
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Her suicidal ideations seem to have abated slightly, and she has become more open in expressing how she feels.